And Then You

How my thoughts they spin me 'round
And how my thoughts they let me down
And how my thoughts they spin me 'round
And how my thoughts they let me down

And how my dreams they spin me 'round
And how my dreams they let me down
And how my thoughts they spin me 'round
And how my thoughts they let me down

Then there's you
Then there's you
Then there's you
Then there's you

And how my love it spins me 'round
And how my love it's let me down
And how my thoughts they spin me 'round
And how my thoughts they let me down

Then there's you
Then there's you
Then there's you
Then there's you

You know I know that you know
I've written it on myself if you can't tell
With a melody that climbs and then falls, then falls, then falls
Without you, without you

How my days they spin me 'round
And how today it sets me down
And how my days they spin me 'round
And how today it sets me down

Alongside you
Alongside you
Alongside you

I am in love with this song by Greg Laswell. So who is this guy, exactly? Well, for my friends in Indonesia, I bet that many of you have already know him. Greg Laswell is a musician, recording engineer, and producer from USA. If you're a fan of TV Series Grey's Anatomy, then you spent most of your TV time listening to his song. Many of his songs are featured in that famous TV Series. But to be honest, I am not a fan of Grey's Anatomy since I never watch it even once. So, where did I found out about him? I am a huge fan of Ingrid Michaelson, which is his wifey, then after learn about that I started to browse about him and listen to his pieces. The result? Magnificent! I love this man. He and Ingrid is match made in heaven. His music is beautiful and so is the lyric.

So, lately I've been playing this song of his all the time, literally. This song called "And Then You" is a terrific song. The lyrics are beautiful and I find it so soothing and deep in its meaning. Though I don't have my significant other yet, I still say that this song is a perfect song for those of you who is in love with somebody and feels like you can rely all of your world upon him/her.

So, have you try listening to Greg Laswell's songs?

Adele's Someone LIke You: Overrated

I repost this from my own tumblr post. Yeah, I'm too lazy to write anything new. You can also visit (or even follow) my tumblog here.

I guess this will be my first time for a long post in tumblr (especially it’s only an opinion, not a matter of my broken heart, hehe). Lately I’ve been talking to my friend; Riska, about overrated things. Yes, overrated.

Janji yang Nyata

Bertahun aku menunggu.
Dan ternyata harapan itu nyata.
Janji itu ada.

Ini tahun ke 22.
Tahun dimana akhirnya aku memeluk dirimu.
Bukan, akhirnya kau yang memelukku.
Aku terkesiap, ingin rasanya meneteskan air mata.

Tapi kutahan itu,
Aku takut kau bertanya mengapa

Lalu kau menciumku
Pipiku disentuh bibirmu itu
Ya, bibir yang selama ini aku harap mau

Hanya melihat tawamu, tanpa sadar aku pun ikut tertawa.
Paling tidak kini cinta itu pun terbalas.

I thought

I thought I forgotten everything. But it turns out it's not. Let's see.

21

Another birthday post from me. Hehehe.

I'm grateful yet this might be my saddest birthday, ever.

I know they do not mean to do this, but yes, I'm disappointed.

My Dad call me to say happy birthday and promise to call me again since my Mom wanted to congratulate me too. But yes, no more calls until now.

And someone is really disappointing. How could that person give me something that belongs to that person-whom-I-hate-the-most. I love that it's something that person give me, but I can't deny that I'm really sad that that person give me something that related to that God-damned person.

I don't know. Maybe it takes time.

Anyway, I got nude lipstick, crayon eye liner, and a cardigan this year. hehehe, thanks to my best friends! 

I am officially 21 and it's legal to do so many things! ~

wish me a very happy year!

Rumahku (dulu)

Rumah.
Apa sih rumah itu?
Bagiku rumah adalah dimana kita bisa beristirahat dengan tenang tanpa harus peduli tentang hal lainnya. Tempat terakhir yang ingin kita tuju saat kita letih dengan kehidupan.

Tidak Tahu

Jangankan sahabat, keluarga, ataupun peramal. Diriku sendiri pun tidak tahu apa yang aku mau. Sekarang adalah sekarang. Apa yang aku lakukan saat ini tidak kupedulikan untuk apa dan apa dampaknya nanti. Yang penting aku riang. Yang penting aku tidak perlu menitikkan air mata dan bangun dengan mata sebesar bola pingpong keesokan harinya. Aku hanya ingin bangun dengan senyuman dan semangat dalam diri. Dan kini aku mulai tersenyum. Mengingat betapa sulitnya hanya untuk tersenyum di bangunku.

Don't Cry

I hate to see you cry.

It'd be better that I am the one who's crying instead of you.

I can't stand watching you cry.

I will catch every tear drop from your beautiful, bold eyes.

I will.

Don't

When will I see you again?

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

When will I see you again? 

Did you never know?

Did you never know, long ago, how much you loved me—

That your love would never lessen and never go?
You were young then, proud and fresh-hearted,
You were too young to know.

Fate is a wind, and red leaves fly before it
Far apart, far away in the gusty time of year—
Seldom we meet now, but when I hear you speaking,
I know your secret, my dear, my dear.

courtesy of: Sara Teasdale

:(

I can't tell how painful it is when you're all choked up and he's okay.

How lonely it is hearing that he's all fine with his life now.

I am happy to know that he's happy... It's just that I'm sad because I'm not his part of happiness anymore.

Again

The sun finally peep behind all the storm above me. Even it's just a dot, at least I see the light.

I hope you read this.


I loved you. And I keep renewing it. But I can't help saying I love you, because you never really care about that.

My feelings are not superficial.

Seriously, I promise myself to stake you in your heart.

Good-bye

Goodbye.

It's good for say bye.

But I don't think so.

100th post

This post is dedicated to the broken-hearted friends.

Hey you, don't be worry, don't be sad. I will always be by your side. He, may come and go. But me, always stay by your side, even when you don't ask to.


Cheer up girls!

Cannonball

Lately, I'm in love with this song. Damien's voice really hypnotizes me.


My favourite lines:

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

WARNING:
The video doesn't explicitly represent the real meaning behind the song. It may be disgusting for pregnant women, people with heart attack, and innocent people.

Strange and Beautiful

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

(Strange and Beautiful - Aqualung)

Hujan

Kamu datang seperti hujan, begitu deras, menghapus kemarau dan menyejukkan bumi. Hanya saja hujan itu hanya sesaat, begitu reda, genangan airmu tak lagi indah dan menyejukkan. Bagiku, itu menyakitkan.

Though I'm Glowing Still You Can't See Me

Hold me, you shall never ever see me
Blankets will not hesitate me
Flowers shant even wake

Kiss me, 'tis the last time you may see me
'Tis the last time light shall harm me
I shall cry myself to death

Funny, how you never showed your love to me
Lovely, oh the lights I can see
It's gleaming in my eyes like when you

Burned me, tear my skin off and leave me
'Tis the last time you may hold me
'Tis the last time I shall say good bye

(Glow by Frau)