Dear You

Dear E,
I know you never love me the way you love him. I know even though you say you love me, your love for me will never be as much as your love for him. But I would like you to know that I'm craving for your love and attention, all my life. I'm not mad at you, I just want to be loved as much as he is loved. It seems that every single thing I've ever done for you is never enough.

Dear I,
I know you love me. I know it. I love you too. But can you stop blaming me for the things that I didn't do? You're never be fair to me. You expect more, but you never give me more. I only expect you to give me more.

Dear A,
I'm just saying that you are the only person that I'm jealous with. You have everything that I never have and I always want. You never know the ugly truth about life, right? They hide it from you for your own good. Everybody loves you, everybody that I always want them to love me the way they love you.

Dear God,
Thank you for giving me a life. Thank you for allowing me to meet these 3 persons that are the most valuable persons in my life. Thank you for the problems, they made me strong. I don't know about Your plan for me. But, I only want to tell You: I'm tortured here, all alone. Hiding every scar and wound behind my smile. Please, make me stronger.

Galau

Galau.

Kayaknya lagi 'in' banget tuh kata. Terutama di timeline twitter gw yang penuh dengan kata-kata galau. Whahaha. Oiya, kayaknya bakal stop nge-link nih blog ke fb deh. Ternyata blog gw tetep sepi, dan d FB yang rame. --"

Sekarang lagi UTS. Pagi ini ujian Citizenship; my favorite one. Tapi sempet-sempetnya gw ngepost. zzz.

Abis jujur aja, gw lagi galau.

Siklus menstruasi jadi akar semua kegalauan.

It results in sensitivity, fight, tears, and sadness.

I know you didn't mean it, but your words really mean to me.
I know you didn't want to hurt me, but you words really hurt me.
I know you love me, but if this the way you love me, than maybe I can't stand this anymore.

It's not that I don't love you anymore, I just need to take a break from this all.
Clean slate after this? Well, only if you agree with it.