Thought-Provoking Question

Lately I've been thinking about some thought-provoking questions wandering around my head. Some of them are available on the internet, at some websites, but some of them just popped out from my head. I've been thinking of sharing it here anyway, so I'd like to share it with you on my next post, me answering the thought-provoking question and give the argument about my answer. Hope it will enrich your knowledge and fill up the gap between your head. And yes, don't forget to leave comment arguing about your own answer toward the questions posted here, I'll be more than happy to have that. :)

Thoughts

Well, I have more than thousand thoughts in my head (and my heart also).

But I'd like to share some thoughts of mine, especially regarding what people say about me.

I happened to find out that there are some people who talk behind my back. They call me miserable, pathetic, none whatsoever. At first I don't care at all, but I want to tell everyone about my point of view.

Well, people said that it's better to hide your own feelings instead of show it to the world. They said it's because you should be more fortunate that you're not living a poor life like people in Africa or poor countries do. But it is definitely wrong. Being poor and can't even eat well is sad. But for me, it's sadder when your soul is hungry rather than your stomach is.

One of the best way to let it go is, to be open about that. Problems, conflicts, heartbroken, and others happen. They are parts of us. We can't be happy all the times. We have to feel the pain and suffer sometimes. And let it out is the best way I've ever tried.

Don't Cry

I hate to see you cry.

It'd be better that I am the one who's crying instead of you.

I can't stand watching you cry.

I will catch every tear drop from your beautiful, bold eyes.

I will.

Strange and Beautiful

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

(Strange and Beautiful - Aqualung)

Better be Prepared

Lately Indonesia is in sorrow. This is because of a lot of natural disasters happened lately. Gunung Merapi eruption, avalanche in Wasior, Tsunami in Mentawai. I live in Jakarta actually, but lately Jakarta was on chaos because of flood attack last week. Because of the flood, there was a lot of traffic jams almost everywhere in Jakarta. Thousands of people stuck in the traffic congestion for almost 8 hours back then. Besides, Jakarta also have a record in earthquake. Last earthquake happened when I was studying in class with my friends and lecturer. It was very shocking, though it only happened for less than 5 minutes. Fortunately I am still alive and healthy after that.

3 weeks ago, one of my lecturer; Mr. Budiman Natadiningrat, gave us a very weird assignment. The assignment was to prepare your own personal survival kit and take a picture of it (as you can see on my previous post My Personal Survival Kit). At that time I just laughed and thought that this assignment was a joke. But now, I think what he done to us was really beneficial. I start to plan for discussion with my friends about the disaster-things like this. Seriously, we need to be well-prepared.

And tonight, I just check out this article on Jakarta Globe about What to Do When Mother Nature Strikes :

Earthquake.
Don’t panic. Be aware that some earthquakes are actually foreshocks and a larger earthquake might occur.

Minimize your movements to a nearby safe place.

If you are indoors, stay there until the shaking has stopped and you are sure that exiting is safe.

If indoors:

Drop to the ground, take cover by getting under a sturdy table or other piece of furniture and hold on until the shaking stops.

If there isn’t a table or desk near you, cover your face and head with your arms and crouch in an inside corner of the building.

Stay away from glass, windows, outside doors and walls and anything that could fall, such as lighting fixtures or furniture.

Use a doorway for shelter only if it is in close proximity to you and if you know it is a strongly supported, load-bearing doorway.

Stay inside until the shaking stops and it is safe to go outside.

Research has shown that most injuries occur when people inside buildings attempt to move to a different location inside the building or try to leave.

Be aware that the electricity may go out or the sprinkler systems or fire alarms may turn on.

Do not use the elevators as they might stop and strand you.

If outdoors:

Stay there. Move away from buildings, streetlights and utility wires.

The greatest danger exists directly outside buildings, at exits and alongside exterior walls.

Ground movement during an earthquake is seldom the direct cause of death or injury.

Most earthquake-related casualties result from collapsing walls, flying glass and falling objects.

If in a moving vehicle:

Stop as quickly as safety permits and stay in the vehicle.

Avoid stopping near or under buildings, trees, overpasses and utility wires.

Proceed cautiously once the earthquake has stopped.

Avoid roads, bridges or ramps that might have been damaged by the earthquake.

If trapped under debris:

Do not light a match.

Do not move about or kick up dust.

Cover your mouth with a handkerchief or clothing.

Tap on a pipe or wall so rescuers can locate you.

Use a whistle if one is available.

Shout only as a last resort. Shouting can cause you to inhale dangerous amounts of dust.

Tsunami.

An earthquake is a natural tsunami warning.

If you feel a strong quake, do not stay close to shore.

If you hear of an earthquake, be aware of the possibility of a tsunami and listen to the radio or television for additional information.

Remember that an earthquake can trigger killer waves thousands of miles across the ocean many hours after the event generated a tsunami.

An approaching tsunami is preceded by an unusual fall or rise in the water level.

If you see the ocean receding unusually rapidly, that’s a good sign that a tsunami may be on its way.

Go to high ground immediately.

A tsunami is a series of waves and the first wave may not be the most dangerous.

The danger from a tsunami can last for several hours after the arrival of the first wave strikes.

A tsunami wave train may come as a series of surges that are five minutes to an hour apart.

The cycle may be marked by a repeated retreat and advance of the ocean.

Stay out of danger until you hear it is safe.

Use your common sense. If you feel or hear of a strong earthquake do not wait for an official tsunami warning.

Tell your family and friends to join you in leaving for high ground. 


Or, for more information, you can visit my lecturer; Mr. Budiman Natadiningrat's website here.


It's really useful guide for common people like us are not well-aware :)

Hujan

Kamu datang seperti hujan, begitu deras, menghapus kemarau dan menyejukkan bumi. Hanya saja hujan itu hanya sesaat, begitu reda, genangan airmu tak lagi indah dan menyejukkan. Bagiku, itu menyakitkan.

Today's Quote

You don't have to share the same faith. You have to respect each other's faith.

-Dr. Ghazala Hayat (On their act endangering their own lives if necessary to save the life of anyone seeking asylum.)

Please Don't

For someone out there who really disappointed me, please read this and learn not to do those things above, anymore.

Mesin Penenun Hujan

Merakit mesin penenun hujan
Hingga terjalin, terbentuk awan
Semua tentang kebalikan
Terlukis, tertulis, tergaris di wajahmu

Keputusan yang tak terputuskan
Ketika engkau telah tunjukkan
Semua tentang kebalikan
Kebalikan di antara kita

Kau sakiti aku, kau gerami aku,
Kau sakiti, gerami, kau benci aku
Tetapi esok nanti kau akan tersadar
Kau temukan seorang lain yang lebih baik
Dan aku kan hilang, ku kan jadi hujan
Tapi takkan lama, ku kan jadi awan

Merakit mesin penenun hujan
Ketika engkau telah tunjukkan
Semua tentang kebalikan
Kebalikan di antara kita


(Frau)

Happy Birthday to Me!

On October 15th, 1990 at 15.47 pm, a baby girl was born healthily with about 3.9 kg weight in Palembang, South Sumatra - Indonesia.
His father and mother ask for the name to the grandfather (from mom's side), then she was named Istiarina Putri; rooted from her father's name (Iskandar Sulaiman) and also means "ikhtiar" or effort in English.

Now that baby girl has already grown up. She's 20 now. And she's ready for the next chapter of her life.

She's been in both good times and hard times. Both love and heartbreak. Both laughter and cry. Both alone and in the crowd.

She's unbreakable. She will never let anyone gets her down. Never ever.


Happy 20th birthday to my dearest me!

And I wish

I want both, but I would rather choose the first one first.

Missing Part

I miss them, and I miss being part of it.

See you later, Mom and Dad.

A Lonely September

I know it's late, but I just found this song. Great for the saddened heart. :)
A song for a someone, may your heart gets well soon.

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
would just kill me if I'm on my own


I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
one more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove


And I didn't mean to meet you then
when we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

Don't blame yourself for what happened to you, girl. Everything happens for a reason. Just keep learning, keep improving.

Everyone

Dear everyone,

I would like to say something to all of you. It's not really that complicated, but since not everyone in this world deeply understand about this, I'm afraid that we'll be closer to the doomsday. Yeah, the doomsday that is created by the human itself, not by our God.

The nature of human is freedom. Why bothers then? Why we keep minding other people's business when our real business is not even finished yet?

Really, I know that the matter of freedom doesn't only happened in Indonesia, my lovely country, but also everywhere in the world, even USA still struggling with this issue.

But special for my country, I keep questioning why people are busy with personal matters and forget about public matters?

They keep fussing about how important a virginity is for girls, even having an idea of virginity interview in entrance exam for the high school student. On the other hand, they keep stealing others' money by doing some mark-up on school's fee, tax, and other things related to public needs.

Lately, there's an issue that makes me ashamed of being both moslem and Indonesian: LGBTIQ rights. OK, I know that this kind of issue is kinda sensitive, but we have to talk about it, sooner or later and like it or not. We can't deny them, they really exist. Just because they're different doesn't mean that we don't care about them right? Put yourself in their shoes then, how do you feel?

(to be continued)

Welcome September

10 September : Idul Fitri
11 September : 9-11 Tragedy
22 September : My daddy's birthday

Quite many for a month. I've been thinking about birthday present for my Dad, any ideas? He loves vintage and secondhand things, but unfortunately, the branded one. So you can kick out things like Shirt, Trousers, Pen, Watch, Bag, Wallet, Cap, and Shoes. So what's left then? Ugh.


Then, talking about my feelings, lately I've been very very very gloomy. Thanks to someone, someone. *wink sarcastically*

In Indonesia, there is a song sang by Vina Panduwinata called September Ceria (Cheerful September), I always wish that I could have that kind of September, but it all diminishes as September is the beginning of the next level of gloom. I can't tell you why, but you can look at my previous posts, those reflect it all.

My favorite quote of all time, related to my gloominess is:

The worst feeling isn’t being lonely. It’s being forgotten by someone you could never forget.

Bye, my only hope is : he/she gonna remember me, like I remember him/her.

You Got Me High

I was lost.
If only we just realize, together.
Not just ignoring what we feel and try to deny it.

We could be us.

But now, you come back and haunt me.
And when that words have been said, you've gone away.
Left me with my heart broken into pieces.


You swallow me then spit me out.

Thank You, my Dear God

My dear God,

I come to you, I come to tell you about my story, even though I know that you're already know every single thing, every single though I've done in my life.

I am sad. I am doomed, God.

I don't blame You. I just feel insecure and now I think I'm lost, God.

Show me you way, I believe I have my own way to happiness.

Like my previous talk with you, I want to be strong. I want to be tough.

And if it is your way to make me tough, to make me strong, I believe I can.

This sin I've done before, I regret it, but I believe that I have a lesson to be learned.

Thank you for always give me great lessons of life, God.

I love you, even though I couldn't love you the way you love me.

Pathetic

I'm craving for your love, please love me back.

Stop Dreaming

Maybe I should stop dreaming.
Maybe all those things are enough for me.

But the more you give, the more I want from you.

I want to scream, out loud and tell you.
"Please stop giving" or "If you don't mind, please give me more, and more, until you're dying because of giving me all you have."

I want the second statement to be spoken by you, soon.

I Miss You

A warning sign:
I missed the good part then I realized
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses

Come on in,
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you, so

A warning sign:
You came back to haunt me and I realized
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover

Come on in
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so
And I'm tired I should not have let you go

Ooooooooooooooooo

So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms


Thanks to Coldplay to create such a painful song like this, for me. :c